she finally tracked me down! the smoking nurse. or should it be the stop smoking nurse? some months ago the doc and i reached a decision... i would give up smoking ... heh! my body really objected to the statins used to lower my ever increasing cholesterol count. no way i could continue taking the damn things. doc was agitated, my risk was too high, she was not happy. only way left to reduce the risk - stop smoking. well... yes, maybe, in a couple of months ... but first ... i was off to new york, then it was christmas and new year, then i flew out to south africa and then of course i had all those cheap, duty free ciggies i did not want to waste. and then herself was coming for a visit and i was avoiding the stop smoking nurse like the plague.
until yesterday. the phone rang, i answered it ... as you do. it was she,
i have a week in which to smoke, while changing my habits. don't smoke in the house, well i don't anyway. don't smoke while driving, heh, quite a good idea except that today i had to drive to maybole for a dentist appointment. so i was nervous, so i smoked in the car! get over it, rome wasn't built in a day! drink six glasses of water a day, man, that is a lot of water to consume as well as the umpteen cups of coffee i drink.
"about the coffee" ...
"what about the friggin' coffee?? i'm giving up smoking, not life."
"it's the first cup in the morning"
"ah you mean the one i can't live without"
"you need to replace it with a cup of hot water and a slice of lemon."
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