i've pins and needles in my tongue the dentist's needle made me numb my mouth was such a sorry sight it gave the dentist quite a fright a great big filling fell right out and left a gaping hole no doubt she chipped and chiselled drilled and sprayed while i sat in the chair and prayed i really hate the gurgling sound of spraying water whooshing round i always know that pretty soon i'll start to choke and then i'll swoon my nerves are shot my muscles tense i can't wait till she says "now rinse" at last she's finished time to leave what a heartfelt sigh i heave i beg the tooth gods hear my plea "please keep my poor teeth safe for me"
once upon a time, a long, long time ago, i broke the metatarsal bone, left foot, second toe. of course, at the time i was not sent for an xray, so the medical world and i were, might i say, ignorant of the fact that a bone was broken. i was assured it might just as easily be arthritis and even if it was a fracture of a small bone of the foot... well, there was nothing to be done.
Hell's teeth! I only had my appointment with the orthopaedic consultant last friday and today an appointment letter arrives. I have an appointment for an mri on the 29th … what??? the nhs showing signs of, dare I say, efficiency. Mayhap the bastards are just overcome with remorse because they left me to hobble around on a broken foot for … ten friggin' months!
Yep, that darn bone is still broken. I was sure it had healed, the pain was definitely in retreat. I nearly cancelled the appointment, luckily I decided to turn up , if only for an opportunity to whinge about the nhs's cavalier attitude towards my crumbling bone structure.
The bone guy is a little concerned... he does not understand how that particular bone came to break. Well, no use asking me! I woke up one morning, swung out of bed, my foot touched the ground and aarrgghhh whooo! Who knows what the devil I get up to at night? I always believed I slept but … who breaks their foot whilst asleep in bed?
Anyway, concern always leads to needles and drilling for blood. They took enough of my own to make a healthy take away for dracula. Then the bone guy consulted with the xray guy and the two of them decided that they needed an mri of my left foot. They sent me on my way with promises of appointments. I was not fooled, I am an old hand at this medical game. I reckoned I would be safely ensconced in a home for the elderly by the time my turn for an mri came around.
Imagine my surprise!
my question is … what happened to the pain? If you have pain for long enough does the brain switch off the pain notification system? Hmmmm ...
spring, summer ... the fund raising committees spring into action. one of my favourite events is "a tea/coffee morning in the village hall". what a great way to have a pound or two siphoned out of my pocket!
ten o'clock this morning (a clear and sunny morning i might add), my pal jean drove through from girvan and we took a stroll up to the hall to partake of the delicious goodies on offer. really good coffee, scones, cream cakes and crumpets galore ... yum!
there were also a few stalls, selling cakes, plants and tombola tickets. i bought a chocolate cake and a couple of tombola tickets and ... i won! a bottle of sherry AND a family ticket to vikingar ...
"Visit Vikingar! located in the beautiful coastal resort of Largs in Ayrshire, and be enthralled by the saga of the Vikings in Scotland. In the capable hands of our costumed story tellers, experience the Viking adventure first hand as you are guided through 500 years of history, shown a Viking Longhouse and taken to meet the Viking Gods and Valkyries in Valhalla, as Viking history is brought to life in the 'Viking Experience'. Then take your seat for an amazing 5-screen film presentation following one Viking family through generations of turmoil, battle and adventure until the Battle of Largs in 1263. Finally, enter the Viking Hall of Knowledge where multi-media technology and other learning aids continue the 'Saga of the Vikings in Scotland'. If you're looking for excitement, realism, atmosphere, action and a great day out - the Viking Experience has it covered! "
sounds good, i'm sure my grandchildren will be delighted :-)
todays fund raiser was in aid of the starfish appeal.
"The Starfish Appeal aims to raise money to refurbish the Mountbatten Ward, the Paediatric Liver Unit in Kings College Hospital. "
about a year ago, a local youngster with liver failure was flown up to the hospital, had a liver transplant and in due course, returned in good health to his family and friends. the family and the village now put on a yearly event to raise funds for the appeal. wonderful community spirit!
1st may, a good date, has a historical ring to it ... may day 2009.
today is the first day of the rest of my life. new beginnings!
life is for living and live it i have. i am of an age where i feel no need to procrastinate or waste time, the clock is ticking.
i firmly believed hahn@home's idea of a six month dating hiatus following the breakdown of a relationship was a excellent idea.
in reality, at my age ... six months is a long time ... just sayin'!
so, today i came to a decision. i stood outside (in the intermittent rain) looked up at the sky, took a deep breath and decided i was grateful to be me. no more guilt, no more sorrow ... life goes on and life is good. an adventure waiting to happen, a feast, piled high for the hungry, to spend another minute looking back would be wasteful.
i will never again 'hunt' love! i will enjoy my world exactly as it is. i will open myself to life and new experiences. if love should land on me, gentle as a butterfly ... i will be very still and give thanks.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" Mary Oliver
“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.” ~Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
"There are too many people, and too few human beings." Robert Zend
"Strength is the ability to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands, and then eat just one of those pieces."